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Star Wars Day Giveaway!
Two weeks from today is May 4th, also known as Star Wars Day. On that day I will be randomly selecting THREE winners from a list randomizer, which will contain the URLs of whoever reblogs this post. There will be three categories of items to choose from:
Category 1
Star Wars AT-AT American Apparel T Dress (Size Large)
Boba Fett Tunic Tee (Size Large)
Category 2
R2-D2 iPhone 4 Decal Skin
Boba Fett iPhone 4 Decal Skin
Category 3
Vintage Star Wars Episode I Pinback Buttons
The Jedi Path (Hardcover book)
The first person picked will get to choose one item from each category (giving them three items). The second person will get to choose two items from what is left. The third person will receive the last item (sorry if you end up disliking it, but free Star Wars stuff is better than no Star Wars stuff!)
**To keep things fair and from getting crazy, I will only count your name FIVE different times (if you choose to reblog it that many times), and no more than that.** You do NOT have to be following me to win. This giveaway is just for fun, to support our favorite franchise, and to add some extra happiness to Star Wars Day! If you are confused or have any questions, feel free to message me.
May the fourth be with you! :3
I was asked what super powers would I pick and why…and would I be evil or good?
What would you pick? Don’t make me have to read your mind!
LoL, I was looking for a pic of me in my tumblr and all these were grouped together. I’m weird, and I don’t care if it shows :P
Well today didn’t quite go as planned, the weather certainly did not cooperate that’s for sure, however it wasn’t completely unproductive. There was lots of snow to shovel so got some cardio and weight training that way at least lol.
The massive mountain of laundry has gotten a little smaller and got some cleaning done too. I didn’t realise how much of a mess everything around me was. I suppose though when your mind is a mess you don’t notice how much of a mess is around you, or you don’t care.
There is still much more to do, cleaning the house is just the beginning clean up the diet, clean out the body, get my body back into the shape my mind is going towards. It will be a process, and not a quick one, I know results won’t be overnight, or over a month, or even perhaps three. But with the determination I used to be able to call on I will find the strength and will to persevere and complete my goals.
Well I spent the better part of the last twenty four hours thinking about that question, “Who Am I?” I still don’t have an answer but perhaps I have a starting point. I may not be aware of who I am now, but I do remember who I was before. I was a strong, proud soldier in the Canadian Army, I was bold and confidant in myself. I was accountable to myself and to others, I made no excuses, and if I was unhappy or ashamed of my actions I did something to correct it rather than just moving past it.
That is not who I am now, but going back to that person isn’t a bad place to start figuring out who I am now, he was a pretty good person and I miss how well he was regarded, and I miss the pride I had in myself and how proud it made my family.
Well I may no longer be a soldier, my plans to return to the military haven’t changed, just delayed and living the way and acting the way I did back then is a good place to start finding who I am again. Maybe that is who I am and I just need to rediscover him.
Well it’s Thursday now, I promised a more interesting blog Tuesday as I was planning to do many things and well none of it happened. I still haven’t gotten back to the gym, I didn’t go shooting, but I did sleep so that was a plus. I also went for coffee yesterday with an old friend, I went through basic training, and infantry training with her before she decided to transfer to the navy while I played in the mud. We knew each other well, we are still good friends and it floored me when we spoke for hours and just when we were getting ready to leave she asked me a question that I am still struggling to answer. “Who are you?”
I laughed when she asked but you know that look your closest friends and family can get when they are serious I mean SERIOUS about something and honestly concerned about you? So I ordered another coffee for her and I and she asked me again. After about another hour of conversation I took her home and have spent the entire time since thinking about that question, “Who am I?” A simple basic question right? Easy answer right? But I still don’t have one.
I have been whatever people have needed me to be without questioning. I have been what other people (friends and family) needed for so long that I have forgotten who I am, what I want, even how to be myself. I’ve been so many things for so many people I feel like I have lost my identity and I don’t like that. I am grateful that my friend pointed this out to me but now it makes me question a great many things. I’ll continue to reflect on this and hopefully I’ll remember who I am and maybe that will help me shake this funk I’ve been in.
Is it over yet?
So I guess there was a big sports event today, Not sure what it was I think it was a rerun from four years ago. All kidding aside it wasn’t that bad a game full of drama and just enough big plays to make it a great game, blown calls, bad penalties, yep not a bad game at all. Someone won, it doesn’t matter who, it was a spectacle and that’s what the NFL wanted. I got a lot of reading done during the game I’d catch the replays when the announcers got excited. Clash of Kings is just amazing, such an intricate story.
I am devouring the book I can’t seem to put it down for long, I’d blame it for my lack of sleep but to be honest, I don’t know what is causing it. My mind races with so many disjointed and disconnected rambling thoughts. Everything from my mother, my late father, my sister, my son, my ex! my job, upcoming events, I can’t make sense of them or quiet my mind like I’ve been able to do previously with meditation and that really bothers me. I’ve always been able to control my thoughts with meditation and the cognitive behaviour therapy that I learned while sitting in on my ex’s sessions for her bi-polar disorder.
It is times like this that I truly miss my father. He was never an emotional guy, even though I never said it to his face I would often think of him a Mr. Spock, he never let his emotions get in the way of what needed to be done or the advise he gave. He would never cut them out of the important things, he was a loving father and husband but he was a rational man and I could use some of that now to quiet my mind.
Everything has just been spinning around so much I hardly spent time with my son today which was unfair to him. He deserves better from me but he’s more understanding than I was at that age. Perhaps it’s the age we live in he certainly has more information and access to it than I did, and having parents that don’t get along puts a different perspective on life for him than I did. Sometimes I think he is too smart for his own good. I try to be a good father but that is another of those thoughts swirling around in my head.
For now I’m going to chalk all this up to a lack of exercise and winter blues though with the +7 degree weather that we’ve had here lately I can’t really complain, it’s been more like an extended fall. Gym tomorrow, a sedative tonight, just to make sure, and perhaps the phantoms of my mind can be quieted.
Sorry for the LONG blog but I ramble when I’m sleepy.
